"my nephew gave me a mothers day cupcake, I think I am some by-proxy quazi mother mother to him but I will be a lonely old childless friendless manless old little lady that no one cares about as has been for the last number of years above 25 or more. I love him and wish he was my child. I wish I could adopt a daughter for all the pretty clothing I know i will never wear. all the ribbons and bows and hats and gloves. I always wanted a little girl and little boy so much. I wanted a career and home of my own, I settled for a lot less to make others happy and that just won't do now."