"Way too lost.
I get these really bad spells where I almost pass out and I get really horribly nauseous/cold/all that. They're pretty much the worse I've ever felt. The last time I had one I started talking to God in my head, promising him that I'd "turn" straight if he made it stop. That I'd stop living how I've been living and go on being how He wanted me to be. I'm a 16 year old girl. I feel hopeless sometimes with it."