How can someone be so sure of what they want? a few months ago, I...

always doubt my decisions. I just wish I was sure of myself. I'd love to be one of those people who are so confident & sure of themselves. They always seem to know what they want in life. Heck. I don't even know if I really like what I'm studying now. Am I really interested in what I'm studying or did I just settle for it? I worry a lot and sometimes I cry for no apparent reason. It hurts so much that I end up crying or worse - cutting my wrist. I am terrible with crowds except for my family or very close friends. I admit I am socially awkward. It's weird though coz my sisters are the total opposite. A confession. I know I don't have the guts to commit suicide. So at night, I wish someone would kill me or I'll die in a car crash or something. I actually hope that I die young. I don't know what's wrong with me. I go through this phase every once in a while.