"Most folks just see me as an object to be used and discarded. It's not a life phase. It started longer before than I used to think. I now realize how people moved me like a pawn and played me like a card and that was all. No utility after that. Once realized I didn't want to be played anymore, they started manipulating me or punishing me for not accepting to be USED and then stonewalling me. The few people I had a true friendship with of years now became different and distant, at any given chance being manipulative when they were not manipulators before, more like Capgras, however I know they probably still have soul. The only new few acquaintances I make only use me as well , when they don't try to stick me up in a figurative closet and lock me there until is time to use me or play me again."