"I have been always lonely. I have never had anyone to love me! Almost every night I cry for my loneliness and bad fate. I wish I have not been born. I have lost all my motivation to live the life! I am just wasting every moment of my life because I don't want this creepy life which I am destined to live! I just want it finished! But I am kind of afraid of death! I want something and someone better ! I want to be better. "