From reddit: I'm unhappy but I'm too weak to do anything about it.
"I love him but I don't think I'm *in love with* him. He's my best friend, a good man, but I'm not even sure I want a man.
I'm a coward and a lazy piece of shit. If not for him, I wouldn't even wake up when I'm supposed to, get some breakfast to eat, or get to work on time. I'm thankful for that, and I love him for that, but my biggest fear is m..."