From reddit: Not sure if survivor's guilt, or what it is.
"I'm not even sure if this belongs here, or in the guilt sub-reddit.
Or the weirdo one, I really don't know.
But sometimes, perhaps once a year when I'm alone and drunk I lie down in my apartment where my dog used to lie and just cry. I had to euthanize him because of skin-cancer which had spread to his organs. I never understood how, but the veteri..."